How did I end up here again?! Why do I have to keep asking that of myself year after year? Ugh…I have to reinvent myself again and it sucks. I wonder now at 55 years old maybe I have no idea what I am doing.  I obviously am terrible at relationships, I have no clear focus regarding a career because I have had a variety of jobs that have made me realize only that I know longer want to do whatever it was I started off doing  And in the course of one month, my baby girl went back to college, my best friend and business partner married and left town, my 84 year old mother had shoulder surgery, another best girlfriend started undergoing chemo for breast cancer and my 10 year relationship with the man I thought I would eventually marry, ended.  I hate to admit it but I’m reeling a bit. And I don’t feel so practical.